Homeless But Not Forgotten

Yes! I’m still homeless!! But that doesn’t mean I should be forgotten for the contributions I have made in society. With that said, I’m advancing forward. I have not allow the evil empire to discourage me like they do most of our people. I’m striving for excellence NO MATTER WHAT THE ODDS ARE! Because I believe in OL’ MIGHTY GOD! And it is HE that keeps me from slipping under.

Right now I feel that I was in better shape than I was several months ago (or before I came to Fayetteville North Carolina).

Before two weeks ago I did not have a car or a learner’s permit. Now I have both, plus the tags that goes along with it. You might not think that is nothing, but it is more than I had two months ago.

The reason I need a car is because I need to find me a place to live. I can’t do that without a car. If there was another way to avoid paying $1400 every six month worth of insurance, wouldn’t you think I done that?

You don’t know what I have gone through. I had to literally take a shower in the streets. I still carry a cart and bottles of water. But I have minimized these showers from 8 to 1. And that is not everyday. I manage to use the laundrymat for that. But that didn’t use to happen.

Cold weather will bring new problems since I’m constantly outside. But I hope that would be minimized with my new move to Raleigh. Fayetteville doesn’t have the infrastructure for people like me. They aren’t use to blacks who think independently from their agendas. So it is best that I move on.

But I do like the fact that people don’t bother me physically when I’m sleeping. Because of the insects, I have to stay covered up. So that can present problems if someone wants my belongings.

So Fayetteville North Carolina isn’t all that bad.

I’ve been talking to a guy that I would considered a kind of mentor. He has given me a list of people to contact who can fill me in on some things I need to do with my life.

Although he is currently employed, his worked is commissioned based. Because he has not earned a salary for 7 months, he is what I considered destitute. I don’t ever want to end up like him, so that is why I choose to be homeless. He has to have several people to drive him to work. I don’t have that issue because now I own my own vehicle. His house isn’t paid for. I don’t have a home, so I don’t have that expense. He dress in nice suits. He has to dress like that for work. I don’t. And I don’t care what people think about me. But he did give me some pointers on what I need to do if I decide to dress well.

He is a great person because he looked beyond my appearance. He did not prejudge me like so many people do. That’s why I like to stay in contact with people like him. He’s REAL. Very few people are like that today. I just wish I could help the poor guy. He is living way beyond his means. I’ve always lived below and that’s why my situation isn’t worse. And unlike most homeless people, I don’t have that expense of smoking and drinking. And when you add drugs, you talking about a real expense.

I have seen so much things that people do wrong that I thought I was over-critical of most people. Now I see I was under-critical. It’s a shame to see the average black man is smoking crack on the street. But I sleep behind a warehouse where this crap goes on all the time.

The police knows, but they are too busy bothering homeless people like me who are trying to get their life together. They practically made homelessness a crime, while they let the drugs continue. I just realize it was better to be in the areas where the drugs was going on so I can limit my contact with the police. Since the police don’t really patrol those areas.

Also a problem I was facing is that no church or shelter in this town want homeless people from the outside to take a shower. So I have to take washups. I’m just so luck that I was able to use the storage room for some of these washups. If you want to be treated like a criminal for being homeless come to Fayetteville. But it is all over the place. I’m just lucky things aren’t worse.

If you wondering why Black Conscious News.com is down, it’s because of my inadequate webhosting company. They were the reason the site kept going down. Now I have to find another provider. It will take time, because if have to get my license and learn how to drive a car comfortably (I can’t find anyone, so I have to just apply what I learned in 6 hours!).

This is America. I use to talk about this same issue on my radio show some years ago. I was basing it on what I read in the newspapers, listen to radio or some personal experience. Now it is no doubt that all what I have been saying for some years is true.

Out people are in trouble both psychologically and spiritually. Most of us are unaware of how detrimental the decision we make.

You got one black police officer chasing the homeless out the park. He is following the order from his supervisor. But he make it obvious that he is against his own people! He told me that he thought of the homeless as children and that I wan’t his kind.

He is a dark skinned heavyset black guy. But his spirit is that of a very confused negro. It is a shame, but the enemy has been very successful in keeping our people confused (even more so today than before).

Remember katrina. Well! I bring it up because these negros in Fayetteville believe they are free. This of course will changed if Fayetteville is ever hit by a disaster. I wonder what those negros who use to attend these city events thought about it when Katrina occurred. They thought it would never happened to them. They were thinking of their white “friends” and why they forgot about them.

I lay things down the way it is. I don’t care who gets offended by reading it. But Black people need to know that things could change overnight.

Just because I’m homeless, don’t mean you won’t be homeless tomorrow. Anyone of us could be in trouble.

My cart has been the target of hatred from both white and black. Whenever someone attacks me, the cart becomes the issue. The cart isn’t who I am, it is what I use to assist me in transporting my stuff from point A to point B. If the gym would have let me keep my locker, I won’t be having this conversation right now.

The car would serve as a storage facility. The storage room isn’t open after 5PM Weekdays and Sunday’s it is closed. So that option is pretty pointless.

When I get to the state’s capital, I will be getting me a gym so I can take a shower.

Well.. the Amtrak station is closing. I got to go. Take care yall.

Chris